yeahhhhh, not tonight.

I am leaving London in a few hours and I have very mixed feelings about it. As usual, I did not mentally prepare myself for this at all. I am not ready for my trip, I am not ready to say goodbye to friends forever, and I am not ready to start over new again. For some reason, I've been feeling kind of lonely this week, and I'm feeling kind of lonely right now despite the sleeping Charlene in my bed. But it will be a relief to get out of this city for a while and breathe. My decision-making skills have been a little disappointing lately; I think I need a break from this sensory overload. I think I need to get some real, guiltless sleep, talk things over, think things through. I think I need to stop booking flights that leave so early in the morning.